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I quit my job at 40 and I dont know what Im doing Anonymous 01/28/26(Tue)02:47:33 No.88934127 [Reply]
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I know that feel bro
>be me
>39, turning 40
>lead technician at big swedish IT company
>20+ certifications
>ran the workshop for 10 years
>everything is fine
>aggressively, suffocatingly fine

>realize next 10 years will look exactly like last 10
>existential_crisis.exe
>tell boss im leaving
>no plan
>no job lined up
>just vibes

>boss is actual saint
>doesnt guilt me
>doesnt throw counteroffer
>gives me 6 months paid leave
>full salary
>all benefits
>"go figure yourself out anon"
>mfw i dont deserve this man

>month 1: reflection
>month 2: applications
>month 3: whatever this is

>apply for IT jobs
>apply for management jobs
>apply to work on a fucking farm
>actual agriculture
>animals and dirt
>not even joking

>3 months to get ONE interview
>jobmarket.jpeg

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Anonymous 01/28/26(Tue)02:48:15 No.88934128
>>88934127

>meanwhile
>not applying for dev jobs
>too scared
>imposter syndrome has entered the chat

>but also meanwhile
>build entire saas for horse management
>150+ stables using it
>build github gamification platform
>users actually signing up
>build iptv client in rust
>works perfectly
>debate for WEEKS whether to open source it
>weeks
>over working code
>because what if someone thinks its bad

>the voice: "youre not a real developer"
>the evidence: literally ships production software
>the voice: "doesnt count"
>me: understandable have a nice day

>mfw 40 and still figuring it out
>mfw thats apparently normal
>mfw the voice never fully goes away
>you just learn to build louder than it talks

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Anonymous 01/28/26(Tue)02:51:44 No.88934156
>>88934127
>ships production software
>150+ users
>"im not a real developer"

anon you ARE a developer
the piece of paper doesnt make you one
shipping code does

we're all gonna make it
Anonymous 01/28/26(Tue)02:53:21 No.88934171
>>88934127
>boss gives 6 months paid leave
>full benefits
>swedish

least dystopian scandinavian employment story
Anonymous 01/28/26(Tue)02:55:08 No.88934183
>>88934128
>you just learn to build louder than it talks

holy based
screenshotting this
Anonymous 01/28/26(Tue)02:57:39 No.88934198
>>88934127
>apply to work on a farm
>actual agriculture

honestly based
sometimes touching grass means literally touching grass
Anonymous 01/28/26(Tue)03:01:22 No.88934217
>>88934127

i know that feel anon

34 here, been at same company 8 years
every day same tickets same meetings same everything
scared to leave because what if i cant find something better
scared to stay because this cant be it

at least you jumped
thats more than most of us
Anonymous 01/28/26(Tue)03:04:55 No.88934241
>>88934128
>debate for WEEKS whether to open source it
>because what if someone thinks its bad

anon i have mass of spaghetti code on github that gets 0 stars and i sleep fine

nobody is looking at your code
and if they do and its bad who cares
at least you shipped something
most people never do
Anonymous 01/28/26(Tue)03:08:33 No.88934267
>>88934171

meanwhile in america:
>tell boss youre leaving
>escorted out by security
>health insurance ends at midnight
>401k vesting evaporates
>freedom.jpg
Anonymous 01/28/26(Tue)03:12:11 No.88934289
>>88934127

good luck on friday anon

and when youre ready, apply for that dev job
youve already proven you can do it
now you just need to believe it
Anonymous 01/28/26(Tue)03:15:47 No.88934312
>>88934127

based and self-aware-pilled

most people never confront the voice
they just let it win quietly
you built anyway

thats the whole game anon
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